The Person I Dare Not Go to See

After being blown by the wind for a while, Lin Yu couldn't take it anymore.

Freezing his kidneys off out here, who could stand that?

The whole pregnancy misunderstanding had been resolved.

What should he do next?

Lin Yu didn't know.

Lin Yu didn't want to die. If given the chance to live, who would willingly choose death?

He couldn't bear to leave Tang Manman; right now, she was gently combing through his hair.

Her small hands were soft and smooth, and the sensation of her fingertips rubbing against his hair roots and scalp felt incredibly comfortable.

It was like being caressed by an angel, giving him a peaceful sense of security.

But the more he felt Tang Manman's goodness, the less he wanted to hurt her, and the more he wanted to prevent that incident from happening.

And the safest method seemed to be that single option.

Lin Yu was completely torn.

Torn between his reluctance to leave Tang Manman and doing what was best for her.

After a long while, he made a decision.

Let's go grab a bite to eat first.

He was a little hungry.

Whatever he needed to do, it could wait.

Lin Yu suggested getting food, and Tang Manman also said she was hungry.

The two hit it off instantly and happily set out to eat.

After a brief discussion, they finally decided to get barbecue.

The barbecue in City H was quite unique. The restaurants would usually sprinkle the skewers with seasoning and grill them to medium-well before serving them to the customers.

Leaving the customers to finish the rest of the grilling process.

Actually, Lin Yu had never quite understood this.

You either grill the skewers completely and serve them, or you just season the raw meat and let the customers do it themselves.

Serving skewers half-cooked like some little punk, what are you playing at?

Lin Yu couldn't figure out the reasoning behind it, and he couldn't be bothered to think about it anymore.

He propped his elbows on the table and leaned sideways to look at Tang Manman beside him.

The red charcoal in the grill was blazing hot. Tang Manman, who had been constantly flipping the meat with her chopsticks, was feeling the heat; a thin layer of sweat had formed on her smooth forehead.

Her expression was serious and focused. Whenever a piece of meat was done, she would pick it up and place it on the plate in front of Lin Yu, saying adorably:

"Eat the meat."

Lin Yu didn't eat. The meat piled higher and higher on his plate, but he hadn't touched his chopsticks once.

Watching the busy Tang Manman, Lin Yu asked, as if possessed:

"Tang Manman, what would you do if I died?"

Tang Manman's slender eyebrows shot up and her eyes widened. As if startled, she hurriedly covered Lin Yu's mouth with her small hand.

"Pfft, pfft, pfft!"

"You're not allowed to say things like that!"

Tang Manman said angrily.

But the words had already been spoken, and Tang Manman had heard them.

She didn't even have time to think about what she would do.

Just simply associating the word death with Lin Yu made her uncontrollably shed tears.

She didn't even dare to think about such a thing.

Seeing Tang Manman cry, how could Lin Yu dare to say anything else? He quickly sat up straight, pulled the teary-eyed Tang Manman into his arms, and softly comforted her:

"There, there."

"Don't cry, don't cry."

"I was just asking."

"I read a book recently that had a discussion about life and death, and I was just sharing my thoughts."

Lin Yu casually made up an excuse.

He never needed to draft his lies.

"You're not even allowed to ask!"

Tang Manman's voice was tinged with a sob as she scolded him sadly:

"What kind of trash book are you reading!"

"You're never allowed to read it again!"

"You finally have time to keep me company, and you say things like this!"

"You only know how to bully me!"

Tang Manman grew sadder as she spoke, as if wanting to cry out all the grievances she had suffered during the time she was given the cold shoulder by Lin Yu.

Lin Yu had no choice but to hold her and coax her softly.

But Tang Manman's tears were like a broken faucet; once she started crying, she couldn't stop.

Feeling the increasingly sharp glares from the people around them, Lin Yu had to find another way.

"Alright, alright."

"Stop crying, the meat is going to burn."

Tang Manman ignored him and continued to bury her face in Lin Yu's chest, crying.

Out of options, Lin Yu had to use his trump card.

"Hurry up and flip the meat. Each slice costs four or five yuan. If it burns, it will be a real waste."

This time, Tang Manman couldn't ignore him. Having grown up poor, she was extremely sensitive to money. She lifted her head and looked at Lin Yu in confusion.

Lin Yu carefully broke it down for her.

"Look, this plate of flavored beef is forty-eight."

"There are eight slices in total. Calculate for yourself how much each slice is."

Tang Manman's tear-filled eyes widened a little. After analyzing the stakes, she reluctantly pulled herself out of Lin Yu's embrace and started flipping the meat.

She hadn't even completely stopped crying, shedding tears while grilling the meat.

Looking at her, so cute yet so pitiful, a slight sense of guilt rose from the bottom of Lin Yu's heart.

Yeah.

But that was it.

He even wanted to bully her a little more.

What was this called again?

Cute aggression?

Whatever.

Lin Yu continued to rest his elbows on the table, supporting his cheek with his palm, and enjoyed being fed by Tang Manman.

However, this time, Tang Manman kept most of the meat for herself.

Looking at the slightly burnt beef on Tang Manman's plate, Lin Yu didn't say anything.

It was just a few slightly burnt pieces of meat.

What did it matter if she ate them?

The important thing was to remember this affection.

Yeah.

He'd just reward her by asking for a little less bride price in the future.

Thinking about it, even someone as shameless as Lin Yu couldn't help but laugh...

...

After eating, Lin Yu declined Tang Manman's invitation for post-dinner activities and took a car to leave alone.

Regarding the person he was about to meet next, Lin Yu felt incredibly guilty—so guilty that he was even a little afraid, afraid to see her.

From the very beginning until now, she had never done anything wrong.

Before that incident happened, she was a wonderful and gentle girl next door.

After that incident happened, she took on the responsibilities of a girlfriend.

No.

What girlfriend would sacrifice so much for a guy?

Given her dedication and tolerance, calling her a wife wouldn't be an exaggeration.

And what about himself?

Not only had he failed to properly sever his relationship with Tang Manman,

but he had also deeply hurt her when she was at her most vulnerable, when she needed companionship and comfort the most.

And then he had lost contact with her for so long without any reason.

Even when he decided to bid farewell to the world, he hadn't considered her for a single second...

Self-blame transformed into painful thorns, wrapping around Lin Yu's heart and piercing it until it bled profusely.

His back, which hadn't been straight to begin with, hunched even more.

He exhaled a breath of hot air, as if sighing away the last bit of light remaining in his eyes through his lips.

"Lin Yu, you really are a piece of shit."